I’m sharing my heart with this post because it’s definitely not been easy.
I used to be one of those girls who couldn’t leave the house without her mascara, eyeliner and concealer. I wouldn’t go to the gym without those “essentials.” I felt that everyone could see my dark circles, my pimple, my short eye lashes…that everyone was looking at me and seeing my flaws.
Do you know what changed my outlook on this?
First of all: the yoga part. Y’all are probably thinking, “What, Madison, you crazy?” Okay. If you have ever been to hot yoga, you will understand. You absolutely cannot wear makeup at all when you go to hot yoga. You sweat from every pore and if you wear makeup, you will look like a melted painting by the end of class.
Secondly, and way more important than hot yoga: Austin changed the way I look at myself in the mirror. When we first starting dating and would go on hikes together, I would make sure to have on a full face of makeup. I didn’t want him to see me without my mascara on. It was super important for me to have a certain “image” around him. There was one date where I couldn’t have on my makeup, maybe it was at a pool (I do not remember)…all I remember is the way Austin looked at me, regardless of if I have on makeup or not. He looks at me like I am the most beautiful person in the world. He’s never given me any sort of insult on my looks and compliments me daily on my inner beauty. Austin gave me the confidence to actually feel beautiful – no matter what I wear or do.
Lastly, and the most important of everything in my life: I asked God for help in this shallow feeling I was engulfed in…to always be perfect…to project the “perfect” image to everyone.
No one is perfect but God.
I felt I had to show everyone the “perfect Madison” because that’s the image I’ve always projected. After a specific period in my life, I started looking at myself in the mirror a bit differently. Before: it was “how can I improve on this look?,” “I wish I didn’t have love handles,” “I have dark circles.” Now, I am so proud and happy to say that I look at myself and have started to say, “what can I do GOOD today?” “how can I spread joy?”
Here’s the challenge: my profession is in fitness. Fitness is image driven. Thankfully, I have an awesome best friend (HEY MELISSA) who helps keep me grounded and reminds me of the reason why I do what I do.
I help people become and stay healthy in order for them to live out to their fullest potential.
I’m sharing my experience because it’s not easy. There are days when I get in a rut and I’m so hard on myself. However, it’s a journey and we’re all human. I am here to tell you that there is FREEDOM in going makeup-free and walking out in the world without “hiding” our flaws. There is actually beauty in the imperfections and you can achieve the freedom I have.
Try it out because I am telling you that the vulnerability you feel of showing people the “real you” is totally worth it.